I Have Doubts

I sometimes get this nagging in my thoughts. It’s as if I cannot reconcile what I perceive as true with my religion. They just don’t want to mix into the world I call reality. There are subjects and situations that rattle my faith a bit. Some even seem like contradictions to the things I believe. It makes me wonder if I have it right. Do atheist have it more worked out than Christians? I don’t think so. Here is where faith goes to work. Matthew 17:20 “…if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, move from here to there and it will move, and nothing will be impossible to you.”

There are a few things in life that I don’t understand. Things that would by themselves cause me to leave my religion as a whimsical experiment in futility. However, compared to the myriad of proof for the existence of God and the deity of Jesus, these few things pale in comparison. As an example, Charles Darwin’s life was rocked to the core when he wrote “The Origin of Species”. He lost his faith based on his failure to understand truth. He simply could not reconcile his theory with that of the current churches belief. Darwin’s mistake was that he never considered that there might be other explanations to his new understanding and ignoring the myriad of proof to support faith in a God that transcends the church of man. He lost his faith based on his inability to reconcile the things he had been told and what he knew as true even though God’s truth was staring him in the face.

2 Corinthians 4:8 “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing.” When I am presented with something I cannot explain that challenges my faith I don’t panic. I remember the myriad of things that far outweigh my limited understanding. My faith is more than what my church tells me it is. It stands on the repeated promises God has fulfilled, not only in history but proven in my own life and others. This type of challenge to my belief is good. It forces me to reconcile what I think I know with truth that is God’s alone. I need to be reminded that God exists and I am not Him. Deuteronomy 29:29 “The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our sons forever, that we may observe all the words of this law.” For now I will try to be content with what God thinks I’m ready for and trust He has these things I don’t understand in His good hands.